Out of the box? Again? ARG!

For as long as I can remember, I’ve loved math. Yesterday, while in my calculus lab, I started thinking about my days back in elementary school. I remembered how much I was held back by my teachers. I always wanted to move one step farther than where the teacher was teaching.

I’m starting to feel like that again. We were going over a relatively simple concept. We were talking about calculating the volumes of non-continuous objects. While talking about the current way we were analyzing the area, I began thinking of other ways we could analyze the area. I started jotting down notes, and before long, I had another way I could analyze the area. I felt pretty proud of myself, until the professor said, “Ok, now we’re going to look at this from another angle.” Then he explained how to solve the equations the way I just came up with.

This was kind of what was happening with me in elementary school. I did the work how they wanted, but then I found different ways of solving the same equations. When doing it my way, I was able to solve the problems faster, and I was able to get the right answer. However, teachers frown on you doing things in your own way. At least mine were. I was always marked off because I didn’t do it their way. I would get my points back when I argued my point. One teacher that would never budge was my analytical geometer teacher in high school. She would never give me any points back, even when I got the right answer and did it her way. I didn’t understand her at all.

I was used to doing things the way I was taught and not ever trying to go beyond the equations that I lost my drive to ever think outside the box. Everything I’ve been taught so far has told me that you are only to read equations and plug in numbers. I think that is a problem with my old school system. I was never pushed. I was only taught to do the bare minimum.

I think sleep is also helping. I’ve had more sleep this week than I’ve had in probably two weeks combined. Right now, I feel like I can solve any equation, read any book in record time, or write any paper I feel like. Is this a sign that I need a job that gives me a better sleep schedule? I’ve told my managers that I need new hours, so I can sleep to no avail. I’ve just been, “talked to.” This leads me to believe that they do not want to move me, just keep me complacent that I will be moved at some point in the future. I can tell you, I’m not looking forward to going back. I like my job enough; I just can’t handle not having any sleep and trying to get my homework and labs done on time. Not to mention all the writing assignments that I have to do. It’s a lot of work and I have very little time.

As humans, we can’t survive not being able to have our down time. People spend it in different ways. I like to play games, watch movies, go to the gym, and hang out with friends. Being either at work, school or sleeping, I have very little time to do any of this. I’m thinking about trying to get a job on campus next year, so I can work around my school schedule a little easier. This week has been the best school week since school started. I’ve had some down time so I can concentrate on school work and have some time that I can dedicate to playing a game or two. I also went to Richmond with some friends last weekend. That was a lot of fun, and I miss being able to go out and do things.

Decisions, decisions.

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